The initial stages of taking care of a newborn was gruelling. It felt like those days would nv get better, I'll never see that light at the end of the tunnel. Even though fellow moms kept telling me it'll get better, but at that moment it felt like a big fat lie!
4 months later, I've became one of those moms that keeps saying 'Dont worry, it'll get better!' too! Haha! I've found a really nice rhythm with Layla. Dont need apps to remind me what time to feed her or to put her to bed anymore. Now i can even slip in time for self-care, like swimming, yoga, facial, pilates, massage etc. Soon enough i shall resume my meditation practices too!
After taking a hiatus of 10 months from filming, i am finally back at work! Honestly, I am scared. I absolutely love breastfeeding Layla! I loved it when it was hard in the beginning, i love it even more now that it's so much easier (when i say easier, i mean no bleeding nips and waking up only once or twice a night). I had put in so much time and effort to build up and stabilise my milk supply. I am scared with work, my supply willl dwindle away.
But i am 100% committed to keeping my supply up! Even if it means sacrificing my sleep, so be it, i will press on! I bought a portable tent so when I'm filming in obscure places, i can pump in the tent! Thank goodness, i haven't had to use it yet.
Going back to work also means a new routine. These days, i wake up at 545a on work days so i can get ready earlier and feed her before i go to work. In order not to take up too much production time, i will need to drive and pump on my way to filming location at 8am. Then the next time i pump will be at lunch time! I am so grateful to my production team for being so understanding towards my commitment to breastfeed!
If there's a will, there's a way. I really, really hope i can pull through this crazy hours for the next 3 months!!
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👗@klarra
