關於 stick figure family of 3 ，我們在網路上蒐集到這些相關的討論、資訊與評價

#電影英文筆記
#C式練英文法
昨天在Netflix上看「Marriage Story（婚姻故事）」這部電影，
誰看過？舉手舉手！
我相信每個人一定都有自己鍾愛的一段，
我自己最愛的是開頭，
兩人各自寫了一段喜歡對方的部分，
（目的是什麼我不能說，因為會小爆雷…）
因為太喜歡這段了，所以看完之後決定用這段當作今天練英文的素材。
看起來好長一段，但相信我，當下在聽打的時候真的一點都不感覺無聊冗長，只覺得怎麼這麼簡單的文字、簡短的話，但卻這麼深刻，真的太扣人心弦了！

我自己練習的步驟：
關掉字幕一句一句聽打出內容 ->對照英文看有沒有錯，順便用自己的話理解 -> 對照中文，加深裡面出現的idioms / slang 的印象 -> 抄寫其中很愛的幾句在英文筆記本裡（因為聽打的階段我是用電腦打字）

常常在聽打的時候，就會很驚訝發現，
天啊！這句話我以為很難講耶，沒想到竟然用這麼簡單的字就可以表達這麼好！
這種「WOW~太神奇了吧！」就成為每次我在練習時的樂趣，呵呵～

例如
She always knows the right thing to do when it comes to difficult family shit.
difficult family shit – 翻譯是翻「嚴重的家庭危機」，但我更喜歡自己的詮釋「跟家庭/家人有關的鳥事」
很多人看到「家庭危機」一定直白想到什麼crisis / issue 甚至 problem之類的，是也可以啦，但family shit就更口語表達這種”shitty things”，滿可愛的耶！

She’s always inexplicably brewing a cup of tea that she doesn’t drink.
Inexplicable / inexplicably – 中文解釋是「無法解釋、令人費解的(地)」，之前一直覺得這個字好像都用在比較文鄒鄒的地方，沒想到在這裡可以當做「她總能神奇地泡好一杯茶，雖然她自己不喝」，有點這種「我真的搞不懂她欸」的感覺。

I get stuck in my ways, and she knows when to push me and when to leave me alone.
Get stuck in my ways – 翻譯雖然是翻「裹足不前」，但平常我們講話真的很少用這個成語呀！所以我自己詮釋是「我自己卡關、猶豫不決很想逃避的時候」
Leave me alone – 字面上解釋是「不要管我讓我一個人獨處或是你走開啦」，但語氣比較平和地講的時候也可以表達「可以讓我靜一靜嗎？/ 給我一點時間冷靜好不好？」

She always says when she doesn’t know something, or hasn’t read a book, or seen a film or a play, whereas I fake it and say something like “I haven’t seen it for a while”.
（她不知道的事情或是還沒看過的書、電影或戲劇，她就會老實說沒看過，不像我會裝懂的說「我很久沒看了」。）
這句我自己講的話一定會分很多句才能表達清楚…自己也做筆記學起來

分享我很喜歡的這段原文吧！
（這段是Charlie 講 Nicole 的部分，若對於 Nicole 講 Charlie 的部分也有興趣的話，
留言跟我說喔！）

What I love about Nicole…
she makes people feel comfortable about even in front of embarrassing things. She really listens when someone is talking. Sometimes she listens too much for too long.
She’s a good citizen.
She always knows the right thing to do when it comes to difficult family shit. I get stuck in my ways, and she knows when to push me and when to leave me alone.
She cuts all our hair.
She’s always inexplicably brewing a cup of tea that she doesn’t drink. And it’s not easy for her to put away a sock, or close a cabinet, or do a dish, but she tries for me.
Nicole grew up in LA around actors, and directors, and movies and TV, and is very close to her mother, Sandra and Cassie, her sister.
Nicole gives great presents.
She is a mother who plays, really plays. She never steps off playing or says it’s too much. And it must be too much some of the time.
She’s competitive.
She’s amazing at opening jars because of her strong arms, which I’ve always found very sexy.
She keeps the fridge over-full. No one is ever hungry in our house.
She can drive a stick.
After that movie, All Over The Girl”, she could’ve stayed in LA and been a movie star, but she gave that up and do theater with me in New York.
She’s brave.
She’s a great dancer, infectious. She makes me wish I could dance.
She always says when she doesn’t know something, or hasn’t read a book, or seen a film or a play, whereas I fake it and say something like “I haven’t seen it for a while”.
My crazy ideas are her favorite things to figure out how to execute.
She’s my favorite actress.

【福禍休咎】

In the last 3 months of 2017, I was horribly sick.

I still do not know the exact cause of my ailment, but my guess is overworking and undersleeping.

When a person is sick for a period of time, it means his luck status at that time isn't tip top.

It will affect the wealth and of course, his mood.

Best way of dealing with it is to ensure speedy recovery and not let impatience get in the way.

I was feeling down in the dumps when I wasn't healing well, despite two rounds of medication.

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水神就是財神

On 4th Jan, I announced my CNY Wealth Manifestation Feng Shui Workshop, through a Facebook Live.

The Facebook Live was streamed at a Pizza Hut restaurant.

I ordered finger food and a beverage. I also requested for warm water to take my medication.

I was expecting just a glass of warm water but the waiter sent it in a 1-litre canister.

It was too much for me to finish.

I don't like to waste food and water. I wanted to fill up my glass and return the canister.

Then a thought flashed past, hey, 水就是財! (Water represents money!)

Must be a sign that my workshop will bring me extra income.

I drank the whole 1-litre of water after doing my Live. Not sharing with anyone.

True enough, the consistent posting and selling of my workshop for the past 10 days brought me more queries than usual.

My January income is already 2 times of both November and December combined.

Proof that Facebook Likes is not necessarily equivalent to income.

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桃李滿天下

For the first time ever in my 12 workshops, a workshop participant came up to me with a bag of plump Australian cherries, at my Wealth Manifestation workshop yesterday.

My first workshop in 2018.

She bought a pack for me, when she was shopping for cherries herself.

I like cherries very much, ever since I had a red sugary one on top of my Swensen's ice-cream sundae.

One of my favourite ice-cream flavours is Ben & Jerry's Cherry Garcia.

Fruits represent harvest.

In Singapore, cherries are more expensive, compared to the usual oranges and bananas.

You can say that they are the classier kind of fruits.

While my mum had always taught me not accept food from strangers, I happily received the fruity gift from Mevlin with thanks.

It was in a Giant plastic bag.

I recognise this as an auspicious sign that my work in 2018 will bring me bountiful rewards, and my reach will gigantically extend beyond the shores of Singapore.

(Actually Mevlin had came for my workshop in Nov 2016, so she isn't a stranger to me. 😁)

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接財神

Leaving the workshop venue, while cruising down the long Geylang road, I caught sight of a towering inflatable smiley God of Fortune.

I asked the Husband to make a Uturn at the lorongs so that I could have a photo taken with the first God of Fortune I see in 2018.

The Husband asked for permission to snap a photo, from the friendly Uncle, seated in front of the hamper shop.

The Uncle grinned and replied, "可以！這是好兆頭！"

("Can! This is a good sign!")

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修福修慧

Back home, I laid out the red packets that I need to pray for.

I picked up this ritual from my Shifu, Master Dai Hu.

Every red packet he receives from his client, no matter the amount, he will do a short 5-minute prayer and dedicate the merits to the client.

I have seen him done so for the past 12 years.

While most people are happy to earn money and spend on themselves, Shifu makes sure he does the prayer, so that the client will have some of his negative karma eradicated.

He often reminds me that it is very tough for most people to earn more money, because their daily conduct are not virtuous.

They are like hamsters in a running wheel, caged up and not knowing what will come next.

Most people react to Life instead of moving ahead of Life.

They have no control over their destiny because they lack the wisdom and benefactor guidance. Some are blinded by lures of easy success.

As a person who is ahead of them, Shifu sees it as his duty to bestow blessings to his clients, not just in the form of Chinese Metaphysics help.

He imparts wisdom to his clients and swears by teaching a man how to fish, rather than giving him a fish outright.

Poverty, debts, lack of growth in career, no recognition at workplace, no benefactors, family disharmony, losing money in investments...

Are all signs of depleting merits and negative karma.

Only when these blouders of negative karma are moved away, and the client mends his conduct to a more virtuous self, Chinese Metaphysics will then be able to manifest its full power to help the client.

That is why Shifu always does the prayer within the same day of receiving it.

He says, "One never knows what might happen the next day to the client, if I don't do the prayer in time."

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先知

In Chinese Metaphysics, there is a divination practise known as 梅花易數, Plum Blossom Oracle.

One can gain an insight into the unknown future, based on what he sees, hears, smells, experiences, and the movement in his surroundings, the people he interacts with, the animals that move around him, and the timings of the happenings.

There is a lot more technicality to it but in short, what we do and experience everyday is always a glimpse into the future.

We are sensory animals. I'm sure if you are in bad luck, you would know without an expert telling you.

You just don't know what to do to get out of it.

The biggest mentality difference between a layman and a wise expert is that...

A layman reacts.

A wise expert preempts.

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窮人相

Yesterday at the workshop, I told my students that if you are penniless, don't expect anyone to sympathise you.

It is your own responsibility to be sufficiently affluent.

Make sure you return what you have borrowed.

Don't hanker for handouts or favours, because the more you take from others, the more you will be karmically indebted.

When you meet-up at a cafe, order something even if it's only a cup of tea.

People are running a business. There's labour, rental, water and electricity bills to pay.

You are using their facility.

To not pay in one way or another is stealing.

Don't grumble or whine when you hit a wall of bad luck. This will add on to the negative energy around you, pushing the God of Fortune further and further away from you.

The God of Fortune is always jovial. He laughs when he gives a lot of money away to many people. He does not sulk, cry, or stinge.

Everybody likes to see the God of Fortune. He is well-liked and has great affinity with millions of people.

It is a joke that talent brings in money.

If you want more people to like you enough to push their hard-earned money to you, buy your products and services...

You need 眾生緣.

The affinity with sentient beings.

Think Jackie Chan, Mark Zuckerberg, Michael Jackson, JK Rowling.

In simplistic terms, when no one owes you, no one will give you money.

How many people have you helped?

How many people's lives have you changed for the better?

Did you help the right people?

How much love and happiness have you given to others?

How much wisdom have you inculcated in them?

What is your motive for helping?

Why do you deserve to be rich?

What are you going to do with all the money?

A poor man can still give his time, effort, and a listening ear. Or donate blood to save a life.

I recognised my lack of affinity with sentient beings in my Bazi. I had incurred 5-figure losses in 2 failed businesses.

I am now making up for lost time, with the amount and depth of content I produce on my Facebook consistently.

I don't do it with a profit mindset.

When you Like my content, comment or share it, and your FB friends get to read it, you are also forming better affinities with sentient beings. #leverage

All these are like savings.

When you are down in your luck, or your negative karma manifests itself, these savings will pull you up in the form of benefactors appearing.

I am aware that some of you read my Facebook to get your dose of happiness, wisdom and positivity.

I am generally not an optimistic person, if not for the Dharma I learnt.

On the other hand, I am also aware that there are people with malicious intent consuming my content.

Should I write less than? No. An affinity formed is an affinity formed.

If it's untruth that is spoken, if malice is the true intent, the person is still indebted to me karmically.

But if it is me who had done that to him or her previously, then all is even.

In any case, it's troublesome and distracting to keep track of who is doing what behind my back.

I also know some of you wanted to get a seat at my workshop but couldn't afford to.

If money is painful for you to talk about, implement what I recommend in this post everyday.

I had been posting here for the past 2 years.

Original content, not just shared posts.

It still feels surreal that strangers are willing to pay to see and hear me talk.

I don't market myself aggressively or go for meet ups to put my name out there. I'm not sociable.

I focus on my content.

Money still comes.

Especially now that I am much better than 3 months ago.

If you are struggling now, think about what you should improve about yourself.

And do it! Don't stick to the same old way of living life.

Disaster is often a recipe for success.

Success, when mismanaged, can also lead to disaster.

When you unravel these two, you will realise they actually mean the same thing.

人要懂得靈活變通。

Riches come easier to those who have a flexible mind and virtuous conduct.

Oh, good mental and physical health is always the greatest wealth.

【賭上靈魂的女人】

青竹蛇兒口，黃蜂尾上針，兩者皆不毒，最毒婦人心。

I have a Bazi client, who has been a social escort for over a decade.

She didn't tell me the truth at the start. In fact, she "challenged" me to use my 6th sense and offered her Bazi.

I do not need your Bazi to read you inside out. Also, Bazi analysis is a highly methodological and scientific method to understand a person's past, present and future Destiny. I'm no medium. There is no 6th sense needed.

Over the many short messages before our meeting, she expressed her shock that I could read so much from merely her words.

I didn't have her birth details at that time, nor had I seen a single photo of hers.

With the internet era, a competent Metaphysics practitioner must have the ability to dissect a person's true character and intention, even from a simple "Hi".

Impossible? Too judgmental? You just haven't met a seasoned human scanner in real life. Or you don't know the true you well enough to see the rock hard truth in our words.

While messaging me questions about a (legitimate) business of hers, I replied with a verse written by my Grandmaster, Living Buddha Lian Sheng:

"君子愛財，取之有道。
不義之財雖到手，
無限後患跟著來。"

(While wealth is covetable, a gentleman makes his wealth through just and ethical means.
Ill gotten wealth, though in your hands, will elicit endless troubles pouring your way.)

She was astounded and asked, "Do you actually know what my job is? This is shocking..."

I guess I passed her challenge with flying colours.

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She wasn't a sex worker, due to harsh circumstances like severe poverty or mountains of heavy medical bills for her family.

A drunk gang rape incident in her uni days changed her views on men and she wanted to take revenge on men. She lived a life of drugs and alcohol in between her lectures.

The way I see it, is her obsession for money that caused her downfall.

On one hot summer day in 2006, she answered a social escort advertisement. She was barely 21 and was influenced by what she read online.

The "Mama-san" who looked her over told her she needed to put on weight.

She was surprised. Wasn't it easier to earn money with a slim figure?

The Mama-san snapped, "Nonsense. Most men dislike a woman who is too slim. They prefer those with some flesh."

She silently made a promise to herself to swallow more burgers.

Her first client was an Arabic businessman. She was paid US500 for one hour.

That virgin taste of easy money lured her deeper and deeper into the abyss.

Clients of powerful backgrounds, Singapore and overseas, single and married, private and government sectors...one-on-one, multiple players, mass orgies...

She lived like a bird freed from her cage. Suddenly she could buy anything she desired, just by sweet talking and giving lusty men access to her nubile body. She was in and out of hotels, as frequently as 5 times a day.

The carefree lifestyle, the freedom of not answering to any boss and those money that poured from the sky was her drug.

In her own words, she was "the woman that all wives curse and fear".

She referred to herself as the woman the wife will loathe to find traces of existence, when the wife checks her husband's handphone with trembling hands.

It was as if she took pride in that.

How did her cause of seeking revenge on men become a twisted path of demolishing other women's marriages?

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It didn't take her long to accumulate 6-figures in her bank account.

The more money she had, however, the more insecure she became.

She worried about losing it all. She deeply craved the warmth of love to complete her soul.

She was only 22. The client was manly, handsome and charming. He gave her $20K for her company.

She badly wanted him for her own. To be his wife.

With $100,000 withdrawn, she gave it all to her 2nd Mama-san. She decided she would use black magic to lock his heart. And soul.

But it was a fraud. The Mama-san started exhorting from her.

She was desperate and down to her last $2. She began stealing from her family and lying to feed the incessant demands and threats from her Mama-san.

She gradually realised this was her retribution of selling her body for quick money.

However, this new realisation didn't change her a bit.

She met a new client, Dave. He was a married man. It was love at first sight for her.

The initial joy she had from the money and attention he showered her blinded her wisdom to the extramarital affair.

She stayed in one of Hong Kong's expensive apartments at a prime district. But it soon became an soulless shell of loneliness that prompted her suicide attempts.

Dave coldly dumped her like a hot potato, as he didn't wish to handle an emotionally volatile woman.

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Ken told her she bore an uncanny resemblance to his first love. She fell hard for his sweet words and gentle demeanour.

He weaved a forlorn tale of an emotionally abusive and lonely marriage, and how it was impossible for him not to to be attracted to her.

They travelled greatly and dined at expensive restaurants.

To have a married man giving his heart to her, was like tasting the forbidden apple. That first juicy bite satiated her craving to be desired. And to win another woman.

This time, she decided she would use black magic again to break up his marriage. She coveted that role of his wife. A permanent and lasting relationship, finally.

Black magic uses the dark forces of ghosts to carry out the client's wishes. She paid a good US$10,000 for a famous sorcerer and another US$4000 for her Thai amulet and mud puppet.

Did she capture Ken in the end?

They got into physical fights crazily. The amulet that controlled the ghosts backfired, and her sanity was devoured by the ghosts.

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Her craziness drove her to swallow 200 sleeping pills and cut her wrists. ANYTHING to have him stay with her. Ken was horrified and visited her daily at the hospital. She felt triumphant. Finally, he was at her beck and call.

The happiness was short-lived. After her discharge, he broke up with her when he was on an overseas stint.

She went absolutely berserk and grabbed a knife to her throat. It felt that the ghosts wielded full control of her mind and body. Her mum kept yelling at her.

The realisation of truth came too late for her: A man, who lied to his wife and had an affair, will never be honest with her. Once a liar, always a liar.

She was warded into the high-dependancy unit at the mental hospital. Everyday, she was surrounded by suicidal and high-risk patients. They were bounded at their feet and hands. It was a petrifying sight. Was this the end of her life? She wasn't even 28. How did she allowed a man to destroy her prime years?

She sought to understand love and karma. She delved into Buddhist books, wanting to know what caused her to lose her mind. She started to have deep regret about taking short cuts in life and her laziness in earning money the ethical way. She saw, on her hands, the fresh blood of people's happiness that she had killed.

But the greed and anxiety in her couldn't be satisfied with a regular job. Or a single man who doesn't make enough to provide for her.

She was needy, attention-seeking and quarrelsome. I had called her a yoyo. I had spent many hours over a few months, replying to her messages.

Every day, she fought hard against the temptation to take up another escort job

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「捨邪歸正」

I lost count how many Masters she sought advice from before she found me online.

She read my posts and was amazed by my tenacity to take failures.

She watched my video on suicide and became aware of the Hell that all suicide victims go to. To repeat that act of killing themselves every day at the same time they died.

Among the many things I said at our consultation, I could tell her the age range she sold herself and that it was a elder lady who gave her the chance. She was surprised at my accuracy.

I told her the only way out was to sincerely repent for her past misdeeds. Blind listening to Buddhist chants and sutras would do nothing to change her fate. That is passive. Being active is to recite it and abide by the precepts.

I instructed her to write out her story in as much details as possible, to lead other sex workers, or wannabes, suicidal people and men with affairs to the Right Path.

This was one of the fastest ways I know that can change a disastrous life around.

All the Thai amulets, crystals and pendants she stashed in her room MUST go. She spoke of their decreasing power over time, and it seemed like a never-ending black hole as she kept on buying more and more to help her legitimate business.

She asked whether she would be able to get a publisher to buy her story.

I told her to forget about making money from her book. Give it for free. Post it online. Somehow, somewhere, everywhere. Get the story out. Fast.

When her boyfriend left her a sum of money, I insisted that she returned it. Don't take money that you didn't earn it rightfully. She said that was her breakup fee. I put my feet down, and said it was a proper relationship between two singles, and she caused the breakup. Why would she need money for loving a man who had loved her?

She promised she would write her story.

But she lied to me. Just like how she lied of making the $49 donation the next day, before seeking a Bazi consultation with me.

She went to the Guan Yin Temple at Waterloo Street, and sought a divination stick. It was her favourite activity whenever she was troubled or at a dilemma.

Right after she left the temple, she messaged and questioned why she received a 下簽 (bad lot) for my recommendation.

I asked for the number of the divination lot and the actual question she posed.

"I want to write a story about my life to encourage women not to sell their bodies and for married men not to have affairs. I may be hurt or sabotaged by people, so please protect me."

That didn't sound like a question. But the Bodhisattva had a way in teaching sentient beings.

I was dumbfounded at the Bodhisattva's omnipresent accuracy and foresight, when I saw the divination number.

It was a bad lot indeed, but not because of the solution I gave to my client.

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「莊子試妻」

Zhuangzi was a famous and well-respected Chinese philosopher of the Warring States Period.

One day at the mountains, he walked past a new grave and saw a woman kneeling over the freshly turned soil, hurriedly fanning it.

Not understanding the woman's behaviour, Zhuangzi asked for her intention.

The woman replied, that her husband lied beneath the soil. Before he died, he had said she could only remarry, when the soil of his grave dried. It was the rainy season at that time, hence her fervent fanning, so that she could quickly seek a new man.

Zhuangzi shook his head, when he heard of her heartlessness.

Unknown to many, Zhuangzi was an accomplished Taoist practitioner. With his supernatural powers, he helped the woman to dry the soil almost immediately. Thrilled at the dried grave, the widow gave her fan to Zhuangzi and hurried down the mountain.

Zhuangzi returned home, singing and waving the fan. His wife, Tian, questioned where he got the fan from. When she heard of the widow, Tian was so angry that she tore the fan into pieces and called the widow shameless.

Zhuangzi pacified his wife and said he had faith in her chastity.

A few days later, he fell very sick and died. Tian was saddened at her husband's sudden death and wept in sorrow

At his funeral, a very handsome young man showed up with his old servant. He said he was Zhuangzi's student, and a son of an important government official.

He wanted to perform the rites of a dutiful student, and helped in his teacher's funeral, by watching vigil for three years.

His good looks caught the eye of the newly minted widow, Tian. She sought to know more his eligibility from the old servant.

Within 20 days, they got married.

On the night of their wedding, the young man was struck with an ear-shattering migraine. Tian anxiously asked the old servant for help. The old servant said his young master had this strange illness since birth. The only cure was to consume the brain of a human. Back in his hometown, the father would take the brain from the prisoners sentenced for death for his son.

But in this remote countryside, where could they find a human brain as medicine?

Tian thought of her dead husband. She promptly took an axe and hacked open his coffin.

Zhuangzi leapt out from the coffin and mused this now-famous Chinese verse, "青竹蛇兒口，黃蜂尾上針，兩者皆不毒，最毒婦人心。"

Tian proclaimed that she heard noises in her coffin and wanted to see if Zhuangzi was alive.

Zhuangzi questioned the red finery on her and the red decor in the house. Tian argued that she wanted to welcome him. So she donned on the wedding finery to get married with him again.

The young man and his servant walked in. They were actually manifestations of Zhuangzi's supernatural powers.

Tian was so ashamed of her heartless and deciteful act that she eventually hung herself.

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Every divination lot comes with a poem and a background story. This was the background story on my client's divination lot.

The poem states:

因名喪德如何事 卻恐吉中變化凶
酒醉不知何處去 青松影里夢朦朧

Virtues are destroyed in pursuit of self gain. Fear that the auspicious will morph into bad.

The drunkard knows nowhere to go. In the green forest a shadow lingers in a dreamy haze.

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It is common to encounter clients that lack faith in my recommendations.

Some will ask many questions after our session, wanting to know why my solutions will help them or how I derive my solutions. There are also emotional clients who would flare up and lose all their manners, when they can't get an answer that they like from me.

I don't ask my doctor what ingredient goes into the making of my cough syrup and how it works scientifically in my body.

I take action by drinking it as prescribed. Because based on past experience, I trust that his medicine will work to help my predicament. I don't drink, I continue to be sick, I don't see results.

My suggestions don't require my clients to consume unknown medical liquids into their bodies. Yet few clients take action, when it comes to their Destiny.

Despite me being recommended by their friend who experienced positive results with my help, and have genuine testimonials to justify my fees.

That divination lot was Bodhisattva telling me: My client will not write her story, for she does not sincerely regret her past acts.

It was also a grave reprimand to her to mend her ways before it was too late.

But she didn't see the divination lot in the same manner as I did.

Not only does she lack faith in my words, she distrusted the holy words of the Bodhisattva too.

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Give money, buy love, buy fame, buy business, buy wealth and buy that. No need hard work.

Such is the sexy appeal of many ghostly amulets. They appeal to people who want many things in life but refuse to follow the Law of Karma, to sow seeds the right way.

I see one client bidded for a Thai amulet from a Facebook Live. Another wanted to buy a multi-coloured bracelet, because "so pretty! Got power some more!" Luckily, his Wife who had learned some Buddhism from me stopped him.

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In March 2017, this client sent me a message:

"Hi Ji Qian, hope you are well. Good luck for your Home Fengshui For A Happy Marriage tomorrow.

I was looking thru our past convos where we first started speaking online. Yes, Im a spoilt brat and Im a yoyo porcupine. I look at a sentence that is poignant - "the day you stop relying on men is the day you become prosperous". I wonder if that day will ever come. I I finally understand that my Facebook Adverts getting disabled is due to my past karma. And I haven't finished writing the repentance story which u instructed me to write in August. I think I know that I'm half-hearted in repentance, that's why I can't bring myself to finish the story. I'm just wondering if I am supposed to survive on my savings till my Facebook Advert Account get reactivated.

I haven't been able to find any new product to sell since XXX (sales also failing miserably). I am weak-willed and too reliant on men. The only thing keeping me from committing suicide is my mum and because I'm reminded by Shifu's words that a suicide victim is doomed to repeat the same act."

菩薩英明。

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Last year, I had casually asked if I could share her story. She promptly gave me the permission.

Yesterday, one client called me unempathetic towards him. The way he wrote suddenly jolted my memory of this client. I had taken too long to write her story.

I told her to write in English and Chinese, and she did part of it.

The account you read of her past was adapted from her written work. Though there are many grammar and structural mistakes, she does write very well.

The poison in our hearts will eventually consume our souls if we do not purge it out. What joy is there when we resort to brutal force to keep a man by our side? Should he chooses to leave, that does not discount the value of our self worth. A man who isn't interested in you for the right reason isn't attractive.

The same goes for men who cheat or pay for sex. You are ruining another woman's life when you satisfy your lust.

When you inflict suffering on another being, in return, you get pain and suffering on yourself. So don't sow the seed in the first place. Repentance done right over a period of time can prevent your past bad seeds from germinating, and reduce your suffering.

If there is any merit in sharing her story here, I dedicate all of it to my client.

May she have the inner wisdom and stability to lead a virtuous life.

May she always be surrounded by good teachers to show her the way.

May her vile affinities be broken and replaced by good ones.

May her greed and hatred be subdued.

May she repent for her past transgressions in time.

No matter how long it may take, one step forward into the Light is one step away from Darkness.

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ཨོཾ་མ་ཎི་པདྨེ་ཧཱུྂ༔
Om Ma Ni Peh Me Hom